Thank You My God

Thank you God for letting me...

enjoy all his smiles

feel his small hand in mine

have his fuzzy head on my pillow

explore the world with him

have his scribbles on my paper

get used to him sleeping with his shoes on 

(because we WERE going home!!!)

pick-up his darts all over the room

hear him call "Mommy, Mommy"

see his dancing eyes when he was mischievous

tote his cups everywhere

smell his sweet smell

need an endless supply of cheerios

 brush his soft hair, often

watch football on tv with him

have to search for "yertle turtle"

wash his blankie when he drifted off

push him in the swing till I thought 

my arms would fall off

and pull him in the wagon till I was dizzy

open his snacks

dry his eyes

clean the sand out of his clothes...again

 have so many giggly mornings

buckle his car seat

show him videos on my phone (over&over&over)

rub his head at night because he wanted me to

have fun getting splashed all those times he was in the tub

fetch his cars after they crashed at the end of the racetrack

trace his little hand on paper

paint with him

teach him to "blow" in my flute

 learn to let him do it on his own

have sleepless nights to spend with my little man

have days when I tended him all day long

feel his soft kisses

rock him to sleep 

feel his little hand patting my back

hear his feet pattering across the floor first thing in the morning

have "my love"........."my little man"

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Thank you for letting me love him

like I knew he was dying!