anyone who's been reading
here for long knows what Nov 1st was
where are the words to say?
to anyone who thinks what I feel
is not normal...
I know you have never been through it
to anyone who thinks
the way I grieve is wrong...
I don't care what you think
I realize you are ignorant
on this subject
I try not to fault you...
but it gets difficult when you
insist you are right
since I'm the one going through it
I know you are wrong.
I refuse to hide my hurt...
I let it show
so that others who hurt
will not feel alone.
When my hurting helps someone else
then I am not alone.
I know many others hurt
from the loss
I also know they do not hurt
like those who have lost.
That being said...
This has been an incredibly long year.
my little man
went home to be with the Lord
there have been many changes.
Some good, some not so
I can tell you that in a year
I know I still have no idea
what I'm going to feel
in the future.
I know that I will not know
until it comes..
and sometimes it's hard to realize..
until later.
I know what I have felt:
like the house is empty...
when I know it's not.
like I am alone...
when I know I'm not.
like part of me died..
